inaturdishmanner:

Shyness and vulnerability are things I’ve always felt, but I’ve also felt a need to be seen—and those are really hard things to reconcile. I started my career as a stand-up comedian because I didn’t want to do the cattle call auditions. What scared me the most was that I’d be going into these rooms and nobody would know who I was. I wanted to show people what my real voice was before I started to play characters. I wear onstage what I would wear on a date because I want to love all these people and I want them to fall in love with me. That’s a really weird and vulnerable position to put yourself in, but it’s also really joyful and exciting, and it feels like romance. But I think I do comedy, like a lot of comedians, because I’m shy and I want to get past that so that I don’t have to be alone. (x)